Back in March, I was so crazy energized by the constant presence of the Holy Spirit. There was no fear as the churches shuttered their doors and fumbled for space in social media’s cluttered realm. I knew God had led our church exclusively into the 3rd space last year for a purpose and the pandemic proved to be why.
But, over the past month I’ve struggled in my prayers, my focus and even committing daily to His Word. I rest upon the promises of God even if those promises no longer look like what I thought they would look like. Still, I was grieving what I felt was the loss of connection with God.
I knew He hadn’t walked off, so I started looking at my life. Did I hold unconfessed sin, had my family sinned, had I lost God’s favor? It felt like I was in a slump but wasn’t sure why. I’d become comfortable being at home, enjoying the time with my family and even laying out by the pool. But was a vacation really what God wanted from me while the world battled evil forces?
I wasn’t questioning my faith, but maybe my calling. I started to wonder if what I was doing was futile as each day’s slide mirrored the next. I actually began to struggle with a sense of spiritual depression as the reality of pressing harder yielded negative results.
This week as I laid outside listening to the audio version of the Bible, God spoke so clearly. It had been months since I had that crystal communications from the Holy Spirit. He reminded me that His work in us is done on the backside of the desert.
It may look like obscurity or futality, but there is a mighty work being done in those moments. Have you found yourself feeling hopeless or helpless in your faith walk? Maybe even wondering where God went in this time of need.
I assure you He has not abandoned you nor forsaken you. God is about to bust open a mighty work in your life if you will just be patient along the backside of your desert.
“Now Moses kept the flock of Jethro his father in law, the priest of Midian: and he led the flock to the backside of the desert, and came to the mountain of God, even to Horeb.”
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Categories: Dr. Scott Silverii
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